another important why

So, the art of reflection. Yesterday morning, I spent my first two hours of the day lost in my mind. Aka, just sitting and thinking. It was hard to resist the impulse of charging my dead phone battery first thing, but once I left my phone where it was and had started letting my mind drift, it wasn't hard to stay entertained. My mind is one that runs quickly from this subject to that; making connections between thoughts until I have no idea where I started. Anyways, it was nice. I have to assume my writing and conversation styles are similar, so don't be suprised if my words lack structure.

But, you know, I've also been thinking... I really don't know what my writing style is anymore. Not really. I have not written freely for a long time. So I am struggling to know what I should even describe (of the many components and occurances of my life). I am struggling to know how I should narrate. Should I let my mind flow freely onto my keyboard or should I pause and search for the right words, words that will sound interesting and engaging?

So long ago, when I first started writing. I knew I just had to start. I couldn't write then... well, not anything worth reading, anyways. But I knew the only way to improve and to find my voice would be to just. write. anything. everything. It was just practice. I'm starting to think after all these years that maybe I simply need to go back to practice. To write often and with no rules. I'm not even going to let myself wonder if all of this might sound extremely boring to others.

To move on from that tangent... I am having my own little personal sunday-afternoon picnic currently. Sitting by the water in the shade of a tree. A bowl of watermelon beside me that's bigger than my head (Which my instragram friends have voted I will be able to finish! We'll see!).

The last thing I'll really say here, is that I want to share a little thought from the sunday school lesson I heard this morning. We've been working our way through a series on God's will for our lives. What that looks like and how we can live it out on a daily basis. The series has been so helpful and insightful for me. Today we focused on God's will for us to love Him. I was really challenged on the point of- what is it that motivates the things I do? Am I making daily decisions based on what will benefit me and make me happy or make me look good? Or am I making my decisions based on what will bring glory to God, what will please Him? Is love for God motivating each and every thing I do?

Our teacher really challenged us... If we truly are motivated by love for God in what we do, we can have a good conscience when people challenge or ask us about what we are doing and why, because our heart is right.

Okay, I'm going to sign off here. I hope you enjoyed my random thoughts for today.

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